July 17, 2008

The trees are alive!

I got no mail again!   So, I'm super sad and traumatized...   I’ve been waiting all week (and it's been a SUPER long wait) to come and check my email since I didn't get any last week cuz the stupid box was full, and now what?!   It sucks. Anyway, Not a good way to start off my writing to you, I'm sorry, Haha.   Let me start again...   I LOVE YOU!
It's a little cold and rainy today.   No complaining though cuz spring has totally sprung!   Yay!   Instead of fried and peeling skin from the arctic blizzards we have really dirty wind.   But there's sun!   Not today, but most of the week.   :)   Sooooo unlike me, but I actually noticed that on all the black gnarled trees are buds.   They live!   So it should be fun to see Peter when it's green. 

Everyone here is on roller blades now that it's warm.   hahahahahaha!   Totally 90's or like Saved By the Bell.   :) Too bad it's neelzya (not allowed) for us missionaries.   We've been walking a lot lately, which I totally love.   Instead of riding the metro, we've been walking from metro to metro, and it's interesting to see how everything is connected.   And I'm getting a little well-needed exercise.   And I die every night when I go home.   We're working hard, and despite our MAJOR differences, Varygina (my comp) and I are getting along really well.   There are little problems here and there, but I think she sees how badly I want to work, so she respects me a little more this time around and we're getting along really well through the gospel.   That's the way it works.   :)   The gospel brings people together.   It rocks.   

The other day we were walking and we had to cross a really big busy street.   At a break in the cars, I thought for sure we could make it across the first section of the street, but as I stepped off the curb I realized a car was coming way too fast for me to make it and my comp let out a blood curdling scream.   It was funny, cuz even tho she screamed, she followed me off the curb into the street.   I don't know, I think you had to be there for the full effect.   It was super hilarious!   We finally made it across safely, but I was DYING laughing cuz she thought I was gonna die, but followed me to death as well.   Her scream still makes me laugh.

Did I tell you that Varygina got lice while she was in Pskov too?!   hahaha she said that her comp did too, and when sister P. went down for an exchange for one day, she got it too!   Nightmare.   But I'm not alone.   Haha

The other day at English practice, a black African guy cruised into my class.   His name is Gabriel and he's from Nigeria.   I freaking love black people.   They're just so spiritual and ready for the gospel.   We were wondering why the heck he was there cuz his native language is English.   He later told us he was given one of our English invites on the street and felt he HAD to come.   The next day after English (in English we had talked a lot about the church and gave the first lesson cuz a guy asked about it,) he came to church.   It was fast and testimony meeting and at the end, he got up to bear his testimony!   But the Branch Prez stood up and said we didn't have time.   UM!>!?!?!>!>!>!   I was so angry!   How about we cut one verse out of the 4 verse song we sang!   Frustrating.   

But afterwards, Gabriel said that the night before he had thought about how we had talked about Joseph Smith in English class, and how Joseph had read James 1:5 and asked God.   He said he wanted to do the same thing, cuz he felt something special.   He asked God to wake him up the next day if he was meant to go to church.   He didn't set his alarm, but said he woke up at 9 o'clock sharp, which was a miracle for him.   He said that during testimony meeting, which was all in Russian by the way, he felt and KNEW that this church was true, and that he was meant to be there.   ....   omg.   I love these miracles! 

Yesterday was zone conference, and it was super good!   It was all about testifying.   I loved it.   And we got to testify, of course.   It was funny, President asked me to pray again unexpectedly, out of EVERYONE there!   Haha, everyone kept asking me "don't you pray at every conference?"   And it's always unplanned, which is weird, cuz they always assign things before the conference.   Anyway, way funny.   And it was a really good spiritual conference.

I love and miss you all so much!   I love my mission and the work I'm able to do here!   I seriously hope that I can do half as much for the people here as I am receiving from serving them.   I love you!

PS--I liked this: 
Proverbs 4:23   keep thy heart with all diligence, for out of it are the issues of life.  (written April 10, 2008)

Cats in the Hermitage

I am HOPING spring has sprung, but the weather already faked us out once before, so we'll see.   

We had transfers.   As you see, I’m not typing for joy or anything, but what can you do.   I really want to go to k-grad, but I think because I want to so bad, I never will.   But maybe next transfer.   :)   I'm still in shuvalovo, but this time with Varygina...   Remember her?   The comp I had in the threesome.   We were both in shock.   And pretty open with each other about how shocked and scared we were/are.   But whatever.   She's an AMAZING missionary, and if anyone can pick up this area, she can.   We don't particularly like each other, but I watch her in awe cuz she's just fearless at contacting.   I want to be like that.   :)   Sure, she's got the Russian thing down... cuz she was born here and all.   But I still am like, wow.   So we'll see how this turns out.   I have a feeling its only for a transfer.   This is my 4th transfer here, everyone keeps grimacing and giving me their apologies, haha!   Shuvalovo isn't the popular place in the mish.   

Kor got put with Sosyak.   They were not a happy pair either, Haha but I think it'll be fine.   It’s only for a transfer cuz Sosyak goes home after this one.   Weird!   She was my trainer!   But anyways, yea, Kor is gone and last night I realized was the first night in a long time I slept without her noises.   Haha!   I told you about that right?   EVERY night.   Did I tell you about how I woke up in the middle of the night the other night and how we were in the middle of a conversation in Russian?   hahahaha I think I ran into a word I didn't know so it startled me into awake mode and I realized we had been talking.   I wonder how many convos we've had in our sleep.   

Last week, we did a really weird service thing at the Hermitage.   They were having this private showing of the underground halls there, for famous people, because there are hundreds of cats living there!   In the hermitage!   I guess a long time ago they had a rat problem so they just brought in a ton of cats and they live there still.   In these underground nasty halls.   Just running around and making it stink!   It was sosoooooo weird!   And they tried to make it all urban with videos of these cats and music and stuff...   sooo not cool.   

But I was up close and personal with a bunch of famous Russians.   Too bad I had no clue who any of them were. My fave was this really Russian, fat dude who was dressed super nice with a long black palto and Russian mink shapka with medals and stuff on him.   He was way funny and joked with me a few times.   I guess he's on TV or something, don't know.   I also met this way cool girl from Germany named Katrin.   She was very interested in the church and we talked a bunch on the phone, but I think someone else talked to her cuz she doesn't want to talk religion anymore, which was a COMPLETE turnaround from what she was wanting before.   Sad.   But she called and invited me out to a nightclub with her and my zone leaders were there so I asked them (totally jokingly, haha) and they freaked.   :)   

I got no mail this week.   Sad.   I’m a little traumatized.   I live for my mail.   :(   My stupid mailbox!

I love you so much.   Write me lots, I’m clearing out my mailbox right now!   Hug everyone for me.  (written April 3, 2008)

Angels among us

OMG, it was hilarious reading about the Russian salads you did.   And yes, you NEED to add mayo, they put it on EVERYTHING here!   Literally. 

The blizzards have been adventurous!   I'm finally seeing the Russia I THOUGHT existed!   I totally feel like I'm in a movie!   It's freaking INSANE!!!!!   The winds are CRAZY and its just whiteouts!   soooooo fun and crazy.   But difficult too since we get around everywhere by foot.   Even if we can take the metro, we still have to walk long distances to them.   But this is my adventure.   :)   After I wrote to you last week, we actually had a couple days of amazing sun.   I would literally sit in our kitchen windowsill in the morning, just soaking it in.

Elder W's bday was this week.   I feel bad cuz birthdays suck for missionaries here, but there's not much to be done.   We're all out of money cuz of mess ups in the office and it's not like we could party in any way.   Haha so I just made cookies and stuff.   

I've become a bread maker...   who am i?!   Yes, I literally knead it with my hands, let it rise and bake it.   I feel so....   I don't even know.   Domestic isn't even the word, I just feel weird.   Haha.   Maybe I could make wheat bread, but I don't know how.   Anyways, hopefully we can buy some flour soon, so I can make some more.   

Easter isn't happening this month, not sure when it will.   But daylight savings will finally hit this Sunday.   

The Bible is soooo X-rated.   I just keep thinking as I'm reading, there is no WAY our world is worse off now than it was in old testament times.   No way.   

So do you remember Dima from my English class?   The really sarcastic guy I love to death that doesn't believe in God.   Yea, well I had a spiritual experience with him the other day.   Every English class, I share a spiritual thought at the end and he expressed to me that he likes them a lot, which to me was a total miracle.   But that wasn't the experience.   We were talking about a bunch of junk, me and my class.   And I was telling them how I wanted to go to University after my mish and all.   Anyways, I don't remember exactly what I was saying at the moment, but he very seriously turned to me and told me to pray about my situation.   Everyone went really quiet, cuz everyone knows Dima, and that's not something that would EVER come out of his mouth.   STUPIDLY, I was like, WHAT are you talking about, this is coming from YOU?   You don't even believe in God!   (I know, I'm a moron, but I just said what everyone else was thinking.)   He very seriously was like, "I know.   But YOU do.   And I know he will answer your prayers."   ....   I felt the spirit so strong, I don't know why, he was simply reminding me of something I testify about all the time.   But I felt HIS testimony when he said that.   It's like he was testifying he DOES know there's a God and that prayer does work.   I don't know, maybe you had to be there.   But everyone was dead silent and it was just a really good moment.   I really do love Dima.

I had something else awesome happen this week.   The other night my comp and I were on our way from the hospital from a meeting with a woman member not from this area.   It was snowing and we were riding the tram, but decided to get off a few stops before ours to contact a little.   We hit a few people with English invites and stuff a?? my comp finally tried to give the BOM to a babushka.   She said no, but that wasn't the point.   It all happened kind of quick, but as we were turning back to continue on our path, I glanced up at the snow as it fell over the street lights and I felt EXTREME happiness.   I SPECIFICALLY felt the impression that an angel was with us.   Maybe I'm being dramatic, but I can honestly say that at that moment, I felt peace that God is always with us, that he loves his missionaries, he loves us.   It was a cool moment for me.   I'm thankful for his love.   How lucky am I to have this gospel in my life!   How lucky are WE as a family!   To know what's up.   :)   We are so blessed.   

The work is really hard right now, our teaching pool has evaporated.   This area is just really hard.   So, the next day, our family home evening situation fell through, like it so often does.   So we contacted and tracted instead.   We gave a lady a BOM in the building that we tracted and she started BAWLING.   She didn't talk to us for long, but looked like she had been waiting for us.   We got her number and are calling her today.   In that same stairwell, a young guy came up the stairs lugging a baby carrying case and a stroller and we asked him if he wanted a BOM.   He SERIOUSLY looked like he wanted it, but his hands were full which is why he was hesitating and his wife walked up and was super rude and said they didn't need it.   So sad, because he looked sorry.   It's usually the men who deny, so I was sorry to see a potential priesthood holder walk away.   It was a good night though.   We left a handout in their box.   :)   

I do love my mission!   I have absolutely no regrets coming on a mission.   I'm definitely meant to be here.   I just wish my fam could be with me.   :)   I miss you and love you so much!   (written March 27, 2008)

Vicka is baptized!

K, you know how we talked about Esther and how I totally LOVED it?!   Well, I’ve been using it as my spiritual thought for like, English class and stuff, and people love it!   Like, how if we're doing what is right in our lives, God will put us in the right place at the right time.   Just like he did for Esther.   And look!   She saved a whole race of people in a city!   It’s awesome!   You can do rockin things when you're righteous.   :)   ps.   was the first chapter of Esther TOTALLY Taming of the Shrew to you?!   I loved it.

I got super sick last night, but my companion totally took care of me.   I have the flu, I think.   It’s been going around, and it hit me hard and fast.   So basically our plans for today are ruined because SOMETHING else went wrong with me.   It sucks how our bodies just FALL apart constantly on the mish!   My comp too.   And all the elders say they feel like that too, so I guess I’m not alone.   Lots of depression too, among all the missionaries, but I think that’s cuz of the long, dark winter.   I just feel like a major moron always having something wrong.   Get OVER it!   I just keep telling myself that.   :)

Cheyenne left!   Her husband got cut from the team or something, so all of a sudden they were leaving!   I don't want to write it all out.   But I’m devastated.   I will really miss them!

We’ve been told that by this time next year there will be HALF the number of missionaries here that there are now.   When I go home there will only be a couple of sisters left.
K, huge news.   Elder S. told me that my favorite girl, Vicka from Pskov got baptized!   SUCH a HUGE miracle!   She's 16 and has been investigating the church for a couple of years, waiting to turn 18 because her parents were against her getting baptized.   We literally taught her every other day when I served there and she's just AMAZING!   I love her!   Well, right before I left, we had a huge breakthrough cuz her mom came to the branch building for me to cut her hair.   Just her BEING there was huge.   She wasn't happy to be there, and wasn't very nice.   But after talking and me cutting her hair, she was just ALL about us!   She wanted a picture with us and wanted to see us again.   I think I told you all of this way back then.   Well, then I got emergency transferred!   And I hadn't heard anything since....   Vicka is baptized!   She's a member of the church!   I love it!   It’s a miracle!

Did I tell you about the service we did at the elementary school?   We went and did this big puppet show with the elders about not smoking.   Kind of funny since the teachers kept going out for smoking breaks.   Anyway, it was a horrible show.   The puppets were cool and the message is good, but the puppets die at the end and have cancer and stuff, it's just horrible.   But I wanted to tell you about the school.   You know how I told you about the hospitals?   Now imagine how schools could be.   It was the darkest, coldest, dirtiest, creepiest place I’ve ever been!   Besides the hospitals!   It was HORRIBLE!   A nightmare!   And the kids go there every day!   No wonder they automatically grow up so hard and angry in this country!   I was in shock.   And I had to go to the bathroom while I was there and of course, it was just a nasty hole, open to the world.   OBVIOUSLY I held it.   Not gonna do that.   Anyway, I thought, maybe it's just THIS school.   But my comp said all the schools are like that, hers was too.   Sad.   

I never told you about the knock down drag out fight we had with an eternal investigator girl a couple of weeks ago.   Her name is Ira, she's crazy.   Always wants to talk with me about sex and I’m always like, okay first off, no.   Second, I’ve never HAD it!   Ridiculous.   Anyway, as always, Russians are really forward and my comp was just so sick and tired of all this girl's junk.   So, in the street they had a screaming fight in which they pulled me into.   The elders (B & W) were terrified and I had to yell at them to leave so I could handle my comp and this girl. Haha it was hilarious!   And ridiculous.   She’s stalking us now with hateful text messages and stuff.   Crazy psycho girl.

My mish is so fun and interesting.   I know that we have no investigators right now, so it's hard.   But still interesting.   I love contacting and tracting.   It’s been fun.   People are just so fun to watch and listen to their different lives and everything.   I'm so thankful for this experience.   It’s really helped me know how I need to live my life.   THANK YOU so much for loving and supporting me while I’m here!   I know I’m being so cheesy, but I’m sooo thankful you don't even know.   So thankful I have YOU!   How did I get so lucky?!   And I’m so thankful I can be so proud to talk about you and our family and use your examples in what I teach all the time.   I'm thankful for the strength I learned from you mom and for dad's integrity.   I totally was giving a spiritual thought on integrity the other day and talking about Daniel and others from the scriptures, then it just came out ALL about Dad and how I'm thankful to have a father who people KNOW they can trust to be honest always and even with their lives.   I love it.   I'm so lucky.   And yes, I brag all the time.   Cuz I can.   :)   I love you so much! 

Love, princess consuella banana hammock...
(written March 20, 2008)

Dark pickled body parts?

Remember Ira? MY Ira. She was my baptism girl. I LOVE HER! Anyways, her Mom got baptized on Saturday!!!! MIRACLE!!! We used to teach her! And her testimony is soooo amazing, but she works every sunday and had other issues to deal with in her life. She knows the church is true, so she was willing to do anything. Even if it means a new job and everything. That's HARD! Especially in Russia! I mean, it seemed a hopeless case, but she was just so amazing and willing to do what it took to be a member and follow her Savior. I love Sveta soooo much, their family is so amazing. I had to sing at her baptism (mortifying) and I made snickerdoodles. Way fun.

We had a holiday on Saturday. There are so many holidays in Russia, it's not even funny. No wonder they can't make a living. There's a holiday every other weekend. Of course the celebrating always starts the day before and goes till at least a day after. Then there are the recovery days from all the drinking... which, lets be honest, since they drink alcohol here literally like water, has to be a LOT of alcohol to get all these people drunk. Crazies. I got my butt grabbed on the metro that day. He was obviously VERY drunk, but that's not an uncommon occurrence here anyways, drunk or not.I never told you about my insomnia nights. My gosh, could anything else go wrong. My body and mind have just fallen apart on my mish, I feel like a hypocondriac... or however you say it. But yea. I couldn't sleep for like 5 days in a row and I was dying.

But guess what! You know how there are two secret creepy closets nailed shut in our apartment? Well, one opened up! ... Maybe I helped it along a little, but it opened. :) Anyways, there are TONS of books! I am so sad I don't read russian, cuz they're all so pretty, and you know I love pretty books. I FEEL like I should be able to read them... sadly i can't. But I have learned all kinds of things from what I could read, like all the words for birds and sea creatures. I read some fairytales in russian. Whoever lived there before us was obviously studying to be a doctor or something because I found so many medical books and an arm pump and stuff. Dude, I totally scored, and it kept me entertained for the sleepless nights. I even found two puzzles and did them both. Should I have spent my time studying the scriptures? Probably...

OH! There are also HUGE jars filled with dark pickled body parts. Or at least that's what it looks like. Creepy.

We had sun on monday and I LOVED it! My comp and district leader are both in major depressions. Lots of missionaries are, I hear. Tends to happen to everyone. But it's baaaad.

The other day we had a fun metro experience that made me think of you mom. We had to switch metros and so were cruising through the corridors from one to the other. But we came around a corner and came to a wall of people dead stopped. And we were still FAR from the escalators... Imagine being in a concrete hall and having no way to go back or forward and you know it will go on forever. haha, it wasn't bad for me, but i thought of you. :) YOu would have FREAKED and screamed bloody murder! It took us a while, we don't know what was wrong, but we were eventually freed.

Wednesday we were on the train all day to a city called Vweeborg... i'm trying to spell it in english for you. :) I'm still shocked at how people live. Yea, there are stories with that, but they're all the same and boring.

So, I've been studying all the parables Christ taught in the New Testament. For the first time, I'm REALLY understanding everything I'm reading! I love it! I was reading The Parable of the Sower and it was weird. As I read and thought, I could totally see everyone we're working with here fall into one of the categories of people Christ spoke about. wow...

Something else hit me this week. It's super obvious, but I just really THOUGHT about it this week. You know how satan doesn't get people all at once. Like he doesn't coax someone off a cliff right away, he does things little by little. Always. Well, It's so interesting to me that here, the little things are mostly the biggest problems for people. People hear what we teach them, they believe, they know it's true! They're willing to give up huge things in their lives, alcohol, porn, even living with someone. But the little thing that gets people.... tea. They don't get it. Why can't we drink tea, it's so not harmful... It's so weird that BECAUSE it's so little, it's what drags people down! It drives me nuts.

Also, since I think about you guys ALL the time, (and seriously, the more I experience, the more I know I SOOO lucked out getting parents and a family like mine! SOOO thankful! I love you!) and I know families are SUPPOSED to be a huge tool to bring people to the gospel... but here... I'll teach people about how the church loves families and how we know we can be with our families forever... but it's so hard when they respond with things like "I hate my parents" or "I don't like my family, I don't want to be with them forever" and they're DEAD serious... sooooo sad! Anyway, I'm so thankful I can be with mine forever. What can I say. My family freaking ROCKS DEATH!
written March 13, 2008